Something happened a few weeks ago that made work incredibly difficult. Working on photos from home wasn’t bad but social media became impossible. I didn’t want to write about it because it wasn’t business related but it has become related by affecting the way I’ve run things these past few weeks.
Three weeks ago a friend passed away. We’ve had time to prepare because he was given a few months to live four or five years ago but that, that didn’t seem to help anyone. I honestly didn’t expect it to get to me very much. He was a great man, that’s not it, it’s just…it’s just hard to explain.
All of a sudden I didn’t want to talk to people or have anyone touch me. And I couldn’t focus on anything any more. Being happy – or at least pretending to be – by sharing photos on Facebook or Instagram and writing a blog post was hard to even wrap my mind around. For some reason I’ve also felt like I wasn’t close enough to him any more to be affected so strongly. So, I haven’t been saying much about it to anyone. But I know that’s kind of silly. And, to be honest, things still aren’t great for me. I’m not sure why exactly. I just can’t snap out of it. I’m pretty sure it’s by the grace of God that I’ve had the focus and strength to finish editing photos and to be present and professional while on location. It’s definitely not by my own strength.
I know I don’t have to say sorry for not being present on social media but, I am. I’m sorry that I haven’t been my usual self and that things like this happen to people. I’m sorry if you’re hurting and going through something right now. I’m sorry that life doesn’t seem fair sometimes and that there doesn’t seem to be anything we can do about it. Im sorry.
“Instead of asking ‘Why?’ try asking ‘What now?'” – Jeff Crozier (possibly in more elaborate words but that’s how my brain translated it)
Not only was it a long weekend in the sense that Monday was a holiday – totally thought yesterday was Sunday so didn’t blog at all – but it was also long because I had two last minute bookings. Last Wednesday I got a call from a bride saying her photographer fell through and she was getting married on Sunday! I felt so bad for their situation but seeing as I also knew who the bride was and the groom and I go back a couple decades I was so happy to be a part of it. The other shoot was a last minute family booking. 13 people, many of them very adorable children. We played at a park for an hour and I captured them as they went around having fun.
It was a wonderful weekend full of work and family for Thanksgiving but I’m definitely in need of a day off. Unfortunately, that won’t happen anytime soon because it’s straight to work calling, emailing, and finding the people on my list to interview. My first two interviews occur this week and then the project is going to be officially started. So far it has felt very on hold but this, this might be it!
Now I have hundreds of photos to go through, happy clients, and so much more to blog and share so I must be off.
See you soon!
Sunday Funday had a totally different meaning to me a couple years ago but it’s still my fun day. I work 6 days a week but always make sure that I have my Sundays off. I don’t do office work and so far haven’t had to book a shoot on Sunday either. It’s my day to go to church and spend with my family.
I live in the same town as my parents, siblings, and their families. A Sunday get together can sometimes have north of 20 people at it (you should see Christmas!). I usually don’t get to spend time with my nephews during the week because they’re in school or in bed by the time I’m free. Unfortunately, with my part time job, I don’t get to have sleep overs any more either. I make sure I still hang out with them and show them I love them by playing or going for walks with them.
Family is so important to me and so is my time off. It helps me refuel for the week, keep my priorities in check, and stay in touch with everyone.
Do you have a certain day of the week you recharge?
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I recently had the pleasure of photographing a wonderful woman named April. She is the mother of 4 talented and caring children. She cares for and encourages all the kids in her life – related or not. She is involved in her church and community, has a huge heart for young mothers and really wants to help people live better.
Her children purchased a Mother’s Day shoot as a surprise but unfortunately she was so ill over Mother’s Day weekend we had to reschedule. Last weekend I met up with her and had a wonderful time.
She mentioned that she’s the type of person who will appreciate the gift but if she doesn’t personally like the photos she will say thank you and then hide them all forever. It was my mission to make sure she liked the photos!
We started out slowly to get her relaxed and comfortable. There was a really nice bench we could use that – I think – gave her the opportunity to sit and not worry so much about what her body was doing. She opened up and her personality came shining through. She was hilarious and absolutely adorable.
After sending her the link to her gallery she thanked me for making her feel pretty. The thing is, throughout the hour long shoot, there were multiple times I looked through the lens and said “Beautiful,” “Gorgeous,” and “You look great!” I know where she was coming from saying thank you but I simply took a photo of a beautiful woman.
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Okay, I’m not actually asking if I should blog because I know I should but I think I might have to change my blogging schedule. I seem to remember to do it at night which means it’s the very end of the day and, well, that’s bad for me. Take last Monday for instance. I thought “It’s too late to blog right now” and decided I’d do it in the morning. Did I? Nope. Did I Tuesday evening when I remembered? Nope. Did I Wednesday when I remembered? Nope because it was almost Thursday! So now it’s Thursday and I almost didn’t blog again.
It’s not the end of the world of course but it is something that is important to me. So, I will revamp my schedule and make it work.
Thanks for following along thus far! Your messages and comments have been very kind and supportive.
I have a couple shoots coming up so I’ll be sharing actual photo related posts soon!
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