I’m sorry

Something happened a few weeks ago that made work incredibly difficult. Working on photos from home wasn’t bad but social media became impossible. I didn’t want to write about it because it wasn’t business related but it has become related by affecting the way I’ve run things these past few weeks.

Three weeks ago a friend passed away. We’ve had time to prepare because he was given a few months to live four or five years ago but that, that didn’t seem to help anyone. I honestly didn’t expect it to get to me very much. He was a great man, that’s not it, it’s just…it’s just hard to explain.

All of a sudden I didn’t want to talk to people or have anyone touch me. And I couldn’t focus on anything any more. Being happy – or at least pretending to be – by sharing photos on Facebook or Instagram and writing a blog post was hard to even wrap my mind around. For some reason I’ve also felt like I wasn’t close enough to him any more to be affected so strongly. So, I haven’t been saying much about it to anyone. But I know that’s kind of silly. And, to be honest, things still aren’t great for me. I’m not sure why exactly. I just can’t snap out of it. I’m pretty sure it’s by the grace of God that I’ve had the focus and strength to finish editing photos and to be present and professional while on location. It’s definitely not by my own strength.

I know I don’t have to say sorry for not being present on social media but, I am. I’m sorry that I haven’t been my usual self and that things like this happen to people. I’m sorry if you’re hurting and going through something right now. I’m sorry that life doesn’t seem fair sometimes and that there doesn’t seem to be anything we can do about it. Im sorry.

“Instead of asking ‘Why?’ try asking ‘What now?'” – Jeff Crozier (possibly in more elaborate words but that’s how my brain translated it)

Ashlée

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Bettcher Family

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I would like to introduce you to the Bettchers. You may have already seen them in my last post. I got a last minute call to do a family photo shoot at Idlewild Park over Thanksgiving weekend. Little did I know most of the family didn’t know either but it went perfectly! The kids were happy, the adults got involved, and the photos turned out great! I can’t say much about this family because I don’t know most of them. The couple I do know, however, are incredible. They are friendly, supportive, hard working, caring, and involved in their community. Their children are sweet, smart, and have big hearts. It was a pleasure taking these photos for them.

 

Wedding and more family photos to come!

Ashlée

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Family Photos

I love taking photos at random moments during photo shoots. You never know what you’re going to get. Many are absolutely horrible and you don’t want to let your client see them but sometimes they’re just fun. Everyone getting into position, making sure they look good, or goofing around before looking good for the photo. To me that’s them looking good. Them being themselves. The true family.

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Ashlée
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And so it begins (the next part anyway)

I have made so many phone calls and sent so many emails this week trying to find the people who were recommended for this project. I have a half a dozen interviews set up for the next week and then a dozen the following two.

I’m very excited to be leaving my desk and meeting people but this is the make it or break it part. The part that isn’t only based on me but still is. I need to be a fantastic interviewer with the right questions, the quick mind and then get the perfect photo.

Yipes!

Here I go,

Ashlée

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Interviews

Well, I’ve received 70+ responses to the survey and now it’s time to start interviewing people. My plan is to visit the farther communities first so that I have less travelling to do in the snowy months.

I’m still excited to do this project but I’m also very nervous. I’m not only nervous to interview people or about the fact that I have to introduce myself to a ton of people and explain what I’m doing. I’m also nervous about representing people, taking good photos and putting it all together well. I’m not good with unknowns and right now, right now there are hundreds.

First step? Make one phone call and get the ball rolling.

Wish me luck!

Ashlée

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Vancouver Island Music Festival

For the past two years I have joined my mother in volunteering at the Vancouver Island MusicFest (VIMF). She is the backstage coordinator for all six stages and I mainly help at the Instrument Lockup and Schleppers tent. Together (I mainly just ask her a bunch of questions and then do what she tells me to) our team makes sure every musician is where they need to be, all instruments are safe or given to the right people, and all stages have the gear they need. It’s a very long weekend of camping in a tent city, very long days, short nights, and never ending music.

One thing I definitely take advantage of while I’m there is my backstage access. I am able to take photos backstage of a majority of the acts. Serena Ryder, The Trews, Enter the Haggis, Darlingside, 54-40 and so many more. While I don’t do anything with the photos really, they are great to have for myself. Stage photos are one of my favourite types to take and it’s really nice to take a break from taking photos for others.

Even though MusicFest was a couple months ago I wanted to share some photos I took.

Hope you’re all having a great week!

Ashlée

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Guedes Boys

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I would like to introduce you to four incredible boys. Each one stole my heart and I have no problem being called a pushover when it comes to them. I’ll tell anyone I’m busy, I have so much to do, I can’t! But if one of the boys asks me to go for a walk or for a sleepover, chances are, it’s a yes.170830_Guedes Boys (28)

I was pretty lucky to be able to stand next to my sister during 3 of 4 of her boys’ births. I lived in Newfoundland during Sawyer’s birth but came home within a week or so of him being born.  I remember holding each one of them in my arms. So tiny and shrivelled up like old men. I had no idea that I would later worry about them as if they were my own. 170830_Guedes Boys (33)

I was watching Grey’s Anatomy one day and a girl started talking about her niece and nephew, “I love them like, if something happened to them, I would die. My heart is so wide open, and they’re so fragile,” She went on to ask how their mom deals with it. I’ve been there so many times. As they cry in pain, frustration, anger, etc. I want to just hug them and make everything go away! How do parents deal with this?

Each of them have sleep overs but we always do different things. Gene wants to make things, Lukas wants to talk and ask questions, William is all about food and video games and Sawyer, well, currently he just runs around playing with and touching everything.

These little men are the loves of my life. Together they are a hand full that I am not always prepared for but in smaller numbers I’m ready! I honestly wouldn’t know what to do if something happened to one of them. But I’ll just continue to pray that nothing does.

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Ashlée

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