Something happened a few weeks ago that made work incredibly difficult. Working on photos from home wasn’t bad but social media became impossible. I didn’t want to write about it because it wasn’t business related but it has become related by affecting the way I’ve run things these past few weeks.
Three weeks ago a friend passed away. We’ve had time to prepare because he was given a few months to live four or five years ago but that, that didn’t seem to help anyone. I honestly didn’t expect it to get to me very much. He was a great man, that’s not it, it’s just…it’s just hard to explain.
All of a sudden I didn’t want to talk to people or have anyone touch me. And I couldn’t focus on anything any more. Being happy – or at least pretending to be – by sharing photos on Facebook or Instagram and writing a blog post was hard to even wrap my mind around. For some reason I’ve also felt like I wasn’t close enough to him any more to be affected so strongly. So, I haven’t been saying much about it to anyone. But I know that’s kind of silly. And, to be honest, things still aren’t great for me. I’m not sure why exactly. I just can’t snap out of it. I’m pretty sure it’s by the grace of God that I’ve had the focus and strength to finish editing photos and to be present and professional while on location. It’s definitely not by my own strength.
I know I don’t have to say sorry for not being present on social media but, I am. I’m sorry that I haven’t been my usual self and that things like this happen to people. I’m sorry if you’re hurting and going through something right now. I’m sorry that life doesn’t seem fair sometimes and that there doesn’t seem to be anything we can do about it. Im sorry.
“Instead of asking ‘Why?’ try asking ‘What now?'” – Jeff Crozier (possibly in more elaborate words but that’s how my brain translated it)
I would like to introduce you to the Bettchers. You may have already seen them in my last post. I got a last minute call to do a family photo shoot at Idlewild Park over Thanksgiving weekend. Little did I know most of the family didn’t know either but it went perfectly! The kids were happy, the adults got involved, and the photos turned out great! I can’t say much about this family because I don’t know most of them. The couple I do know, however, are incredible. They are friendly, supportive, hard working, caring, and involved in their community. Their children are sweet, smart, and have big hearts. It was a pleasure taking these photos for them.
Wedding and more family photos to come!
I love taking photos at random moments during photo shoots. You never know what you’re going to get. Many are absolutely horrible and you don’t want to let your client see them but sometimes they’re just fun. Everyone getting into position, making sure they look good, or goofing around before looking good for the photo. To me that’s them looking good. Them being themselves. The true family.
Not only was it a long weekend in the sense that Monday was a holiday – totally thought yesterday was Sunday so didn’t blog at all – but it was also long because I had two last minute bookings. Last Wednesday I got a call from a bride saying her photographer fell through and she was getting married on Sunday! I felt so bad for their situation but seeing as I also knew who the bride was and the groom and I go back a couple decades I was so happy to be a part of it. The other shoot was a last minute family booking. 13 people, many of them very adorable children. We played at a park for an hour and I captured them as they went around having fun.
It was a wonderful weekend full of work and family for Thanksgiving but I’m definitely in need of a day off. Unfortunately, that won’t happen anytime soon because it’s straight to work calling, emailing, and finding the people on my list to interview. My first two interviews occur this week and then the project is going to be officially started. So far it has felt very on hold but this, this might be it!
Now I have hundreds of photos to go through, happy clients, and so much more to blog and share so I must be off.
See you soon!
I would like to introduce you to four incredible boys. Each one stole my heart and I have no problem being called a pushover when it comes to them. I’ll tell anyone I’m busy, I have so much to do, I can’t! But if one of the boys asks me to go for a walk or for a sleepover, chances are, it’s a yes.
I was pretty lucky to be able to stand next to my sister during 3 of 4 of her boys’ births. I lived in Newfoundland during Sawyer’s birth but came home within a week or so of him being born. I remember holding each one of them in my arms. So tiny and shrivelled up like old men. I had no idea that I would later worry about them as if they were my own.
I was watching Grey’s Anatomy one day and a girl started talking about her niece and nephew, “I love them like, if something happened to them, I would die. My heart is so wide open, and they’re so fragile,” She went on to ask how their mom deals with it. I’ve been there so many times. As they cry in pain, frustration, anger, etc. I want to just hug them and make everything go away! How do parents deal with this?
Each of them have sleep overs but we always do different things. Gene wants to make things, Lukas wants to talk and ask questions, William is all about food and video games and Sawyer, well, currently he just runs around playing with and touching everything.
These little men are the loves of my life. Together they are a hand full that I am not always prepared for but in smaller numbers I’m ready! I honestly wouldn’t know what to do if something happened to one of them. But I’ll just continue to pray that nothing does.
The Crozier family was all together for a morning of laughs, photos, and a ton of bugs before Zac went back to school.
We did the shoot on Dee-Anne’s parents’ property because it holds a very special place in her heart. She has many memories of the machine filled yard and green field. While it made for a great background for the shoot it came with many flies and wasps. The family did great ignoring the bugs but the little white dots floating between them and I were just a little annoying in post processing.
This family is incredible. Jeff and Dee-Anne are the type of people who would do anything for you. Last year I ended up in the hospital and Jeff came to see me while I was in the ER. We had no idea what was going on yet but he was there if I needed anything. After my surgery Dee-Anne came up to pretty much just sit in my room until I was calm and comfortable being alone. They work so incredibly hard to not necessarily please everyone but to be there for as many people as possible.
Each Crozier kid has a different but similar personality. They each have a million faces and unique personalities but all a little goofy – okay, maybe a lot goofy! Although their lives are in different places they are all working towards their future: Madi is entering Grade 11, Zac is headed to Bethal School of Supernatural Ministry to do a third year internship, and Andrew is currently entering his second year of business at the College of the Rockies.
It was a lot of fun taking these photos. If you’d like to see some more they will be on Facebook shortly. If you’d like to book your own family photos you can reach me through my website or at 250-421-4363
While I was on the coast I had the pleasure of photographing a wonderful family. They are three strong and beautiful women. The shoot was focused around the two daughters who seemed more than excited to take photos with me. We went to a lovely beach on Salt Spring Island and started with one at a time. They chose where they wanted to go on the beach for their solo photos and were absolutely adorable!
Haylee, the youngest, chose some rocks heading from the water to a cliff. We didn’t go climbing but she gingerly walked across small crevasses and then stood there smiling at me. She started playing with her hair and giggling – and wouldn’t stop! Haylee is so gentle and sweet.
Haylee’s older sister, Aby, chose to go climbing. We went off across some logs and into the trees. She climbed a hill and grabbed a stick in a fighting stance. She moved so fast while telling these amazing stories about school, her family, her summer, and her dad that I had to be precise about when I took the photos or I had her eyes closed or mouth wide open. She is such an incredibly animated and intriguing soul.
There was absolutely no arguing when it came to the photos of them together. “The fence!” followed by “Can we climb the tree?!” As I took their photos I couldn’t believe how much they look like their parents. At one point when I asked them to tell me an embarrassing story about their mom they looked at each other with these mischievous smiles just like I’ve seen their parents do in the past. Sitting in front of me was Sandy and Travis.Being able to take these photos meant so much to me. I’m not sure if I can explain why, except, because I love them. Ashlée